Reading Colleen Saidman Yee’s “Yoga for Life” her story reads like chapters from my own unique life story. Although I haven’t been struck by lightning (yet!) but I did work as a model throughout my twenties and I’ve had an eventful lifestyle of excess, adventures and heartbreak. I can relate to her insecurities, as well as the fear and pain she has experienced. We are all human beings afterall, muddling along and making it up as we go. Her book is refreshingly candid, warm and authentic. She doesn’t hide behind any marketing masks or polished veneers, she is real and pure. I have so much respect for her inspirational courage in laying herself completely bare and saying this is who I am and this is what I’ve learnt. Being able to relate to someone else’s story and say “me too”, is such a comforting feeling and it’s like my soul was smiling to itself and saying “you see, you’re not alone, other people feel and experience life as you do”.
I have so many yoga books and each one has taught me something new, whether it be a new perspective or a new asana posture or a way to breathe differently a healing enquiry into my own mind, body and soul. My yoga journey has changed my life and the way I deal with the world. It has happened in a very gradual way, akin to watching your baby grow up. You don’t notice the everyday subtle changes but then when you look back you realise how much they’ve grown and changed along the way. These tiny differences in the way I think and react to life are tantamount to a miracle just a very slow and subtle one!
I am convinced that I had to hit rock bottom before I could find my yoga path and reinvent myself like a phoenix from the ashes, reborn, having had a spiritual awakening. Colleen’s book is such a beautiful reminder that we’re all still learning and that yoga is not an act to be performed but a lifestyle, it’s a way of life to becoming the best version of yourself and accepting yourself for who you are, warts and all. I’m starting to like my imperfections (gradually) and on the days when things are tough I have survival skills that help me cope with difficult feelings and emotions – the breath being the main one! Just closing my eyes and connecting to my breath can sometimes be enough to “take me inside myself” and I am much better placed to deal with the external situation.
Thank you Colleen for sharing your path so openly, the positive ripple effect of your yoga has reached me. Namaste.